kadang-kadang saya rasa letih dgn perkara yg tak kunjung tiba.

kadang-kadang ia ada di dpan mata,tapi saya sembunyikan diri kerana tak dpat nk terima kenyataan yg sedia ada

kadang-kadang saya resah gelisah tapi saya tutup dgn gelak ketawa

but until when?

is there an exit for every unsolved problem in my heart?

i always believe, everything that happen is in God's hand, and i keep praying

its not that every problem keep appearing every min

but when it's come,it's like the end of everything

saya tau saya kuat

tapi kadang-kadang, saya jatuh tersungkur kerana kekuatan itu sendiri

saya terbaca yang senjata wanita apabila dlm kesulitan adalah air mata

and i think that i have lots of it!

long journey~

rasa macam da lama tak moncoret-coret kat blogni,heh~ but suddenly got idea,and today is the best day to coret-coret. basically i can't said that i'm fully employed, but i'm on my way there. going on training, learning new things before battling in the real work life. but what had been bothering me lately was, my brother suggested to me to become a part time insurance seller...(he has a friend working in the industry and he wants me to go and have a try). for me,its definitely sounds weird because i dont even know how's insurance work,to start with.

so when his friend give us some briefing about the product and things that we need to be promoted, i'm definitely blur. seriously, i dont even know whether i'm interested or not. but because my brother is an accountant, he's assured me that this is an important investment that should be made by everybody.again,my mind keep thinking where on the earth i will find a person to sell this skim with?hurm, negative thought from the beginning,heh~

then las nite we got to listen to some briefing, and my brother said that, he wants to enter this field because he wants to know the exact way how actually the insurance work. and he hope that after he join it, our family can have proper protection. maybe our close friends also.....hurm,i think i get some of the idea, and maybe i need to do some research in order to understand the whole structure.so friends, i wouldnt provoke you to buy insurance (takaful) from me(heh~), but maybe if you want to get some idea on how it works, maybe we can work it together...for better future life insyaAllah.....

p/s: i'll only know that there were lots of takaful skim,for women, for hajj and etc....amazing,amazing~

masanya telah tiba?

pening~pening.rsa mcm nk pindah rumah!!padahal cuma menumpang berteduh kt rumah dr brahim.tp habis 1 almari dipunggah tak tau baju ape yg nak dibawa.... tomorrow will be a busy day!mahu settlekan everything before starting a new chapter. no feeeeeelings at all~utk ape yg bakal terjadi dan hampir-hampir terjadi (heh~). anyway sentiasa berdoa supaya Allah tetapkan hati saya,permudahkan perjalanan urusan saya dan kurniakan ketabahan untuk hari-hari yg mendatang. (kredit to en omar yang terus-menerus menghulurkan duit untuk anakandanya yang tak pernah nak mnyimpan duit scholar dolu-dolu, time2 camni menggelabah takde saving,hahaha).

anyway,yesterday was a fun day. gather with rakan-rakan susah senang saya. update gosip di tgh2 panas smbil mngusha2 pngantin. rasa mcm sekejap sgt masa berlalu.gmbar pengantinpn dpt snap 1 je,2pn blur.tp gsip diteruskan dkt kenduri pertunangan umi.Alhamdulillah, i've participated in umi's engagement! haha,ingat lagi dulu umi selalu berseloroh, eh klu tunang aku tak ajak, time kahwin aku ajakla. tp dia ajak,jd saya dtg mnyerbu!! seorg lg join the club~kelab tunang2 org,hahaha~

tapi,saya bahagia bila tgk kawan bahagia.insyaAllah klu dpt kad 2 akan sedaya upaya saya datang ke majlis. wlupn org akan bertanya turn saya bila,saya buat2 tak faham jela.wlupn kawan2 saya da start bincang2 pasal bdget kahwin 2011, saya buat2 tak dgr jela,hahahaha~life is fun if we know how to make fun of it.jd kepada pengantin2 baru dan bakal pengantin,congratulations!!!semoga bahagia dunia akhirat insyaAllah

dgn bakal puan umi~

depan rumah baru umi!!thanx 4 inviting~

Rahmat Ujian

Album : Layar Keinsafan
Munsyid : Mestica

Dalam derita ada bahagia
Dalam gembira mungkin terselit duka
Tak siapa tahu
Tak siapa pinta ujian bertamu

Bibir mudah mengucap sabar
Tapi hatilah yang remuk menderita
Insan memandang
Mempunyai berbagai tafsiran

Segala takdir
Terimalah dengan hati yang terbuka
Walau terseksa ada hikmahnya


Harus ada rasa bersyukur
Di setiap kali ujian menjelma
Itu jelasnya membuktikan
Allah mengasihimu setiap masa
Diuji tahap keimanan
Sedangkan ramai terbiar dilalaikan
Hanya yang terpilih sahaja
Antara berjuta mendapat rahmatNya

Allah rindu mendengarkan
Rintihanmu berpanjangan
Bersyukurlah dan tabahlah menghadapi


Segala takdir
Terimalah dengan hati yang terbuka
Walau terseksa ada hikmahnya


Allah rindu mendengarkan
Rintihanmu berpanjangan
Bersyukurlah dan tabahlah menghadapi
Segala ujian diberi
Maka bersyukurlah selalu

my wish~

1. i wish that i made a good decision when there are choices~

2. i wish i'm not a burden for my parents since i'm unemployed and unmarried (heh~)

3.i wish i'm strong enough to fulfill my ambition,i wish even though it takes years (or decades?)

4. i wish that when i'm being test by God, i will become more stronger, and decline to crying excessively without valid reason~should think wisely and bring myself closer towards Allah.

5. i wish,rather than blaming others about my failures, why didnt i sit for a minute and thinking about my fault?

6. i wish my friends will live happily ever after and bring success towards whatever they are doing right now. (dr mar, en ping,en tenk, datin mjid,toh puan jana,en sar,cik cha,puan sri lala and all of my wonderful friends~be strong!!)

7. i wish i can further my studies,if not now,maybe later?

8. i wish that i have a successful career build with what i had been chosen since my university year.

9. i wish i have a good companion, that can guide me and our future little soldiers,in this world and hereafter.

10. i wish he would look back at me,even only for once?

last but not least, i wish all of us practise Islam as our lifestyle, rather than admitting as Islam, but act otherwise....

reminder~

yesterday i'm reading an article in harakah written by tuan guru nik aziz.i'm not talking about politic,but since harakah have lots of slot about religion's perspectives, i'm enjoyed reading it. basically the article talks about politics, but what attract me most was the words that has been used by tuan guru. he said that

" Dlm Quran, Allah tak sebut wahai orang-orang Islam, tp Allah sebut wahai orang-orang yang beriman"

the sentence itself makes me think a lot. as we know Malaysia is an Islamic country. Every single Malay that i met is a Muslim (i dont know someone whom i never met~). So basically we can see that the teaching of Islam is not being fully practised here. even me myself, needs lots of improvement to become a better Muslim. If we believe in Rukun Islam, it doesnt make us complete. we need to accompany it with Rukun Iman. "Beriman dgn Allah s.w.t" adakah kita termasuk dalam golongan itu? adakah kita perasan atau pura-pura tidak tahu bahawa segala bentuk kemenangan yang dijanjikan Allah adalah untuk orang yg beriman, bukannya org Islam?
fikir-fikirkan~

Actually i'm not qualified enough to discuss it further but its more a reminder for myself. we pray five times a day, but there were several things that Allah forbid, but still we practise it leisurely. maybe it just me,maybe it just me...so as a servant of Him, let us prays every single day to live as as mu'min, and die as a mu'min insyaAllah...

just yesterday i'm head over heels with korean dramas, today i'm learning something new. when we talk about korea, people will say about their entertainment,soccer or technology. but thats not all, because when i''ll opened the kbs channel this morning, it shows the documentary of ramadhan in SEOUL!! wah, people wouldnt make it documentary if they are not interested rite? they also want to know why Muslims are fasting in the month of Ramadan~

eventhough majority of the people in the interview was foreigners (saudi arabia,indonesia, african and definitely the imam of the masjid is MALAYSIAN!!proud...proud....proud), there is this man,i forgot his name but purely korean muslim, sharing his first time to fast in that ramadhan. and he's the same age with me!!(okay that's out of point). and the best sentence i heard on that program was

"For non muslim, Ramadhan means fasting, but for Muslim it means enjoying the act of ibadah through emptying their stomach"-erk,sort of

wow,wow and wow!!and we here only thinking about bazar ramadan,ok mybe thats only me=p
but it do open my eyes. one of the event they celebrated during ramadan was the hafazan competition, from a kid as small as 4 years old to adult. and that man i've told you before, his voice when he recite it was DAEBAK!!!he's really good in it. ok mybe i'm exaggerated but thats the fact of me,ohooooooi~

and then comes hari raya. they're happy, really happy with the coming eid, but at the same time feel sad with the end of ramadan.the mosque was full of people ,takbir and praying solat eidulfitr.
they thank god for giving them opportunity to celebrate the day of winning for muslim.....

basically i'm learning lots of things from this documentary. becos i'm being born as a Muslim, i'm taking everything in granted. so i need to look back, and look forward to be more sincere in everything i do. to upgrade my worship towards Allah. to purify my soul and gives my best to Him.i believe in the beauty of Islam, and i want it to spread all over the world,freely. lets we all do the best in spreading the words of Islam.

Firman Allah SWT: "Katakanlah: Hai hamba-hambaKu yang melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri, janganlah kamu berputus asa terhadap rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah mengampuni dosa-dosa semuanya. Sesungguhnya Dialah Yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang." (Az-Zumar:53)

2011

"PATIENCE IS NOT THE ABILITY TO WAIT, BUT THE ABILITY TO KEEP A GOOD ATTITUDE WHILE WAITING"

if possible i want to embrace mountain, so i'm satisfied enough with my success. but do people ever satisfied?no way~its definitely a lie. even when you're one step more towards your dream, you will become more greedy. there will be hopes for something better, even people start to envy with what you have. so, where's the line of successfulness?

when i'm entered university, there's so much in my mind. my future plan, etc,etc, etc~ and here i am,a graduate of university and still hoping for a better future. future~there's something blur about it. because you dont even know if the certificates that you're taken are utilize enough on the current market. so you just gamble yourself, taking any course that you like and see the market for the next 4 years.

but, i dont wan to lose hope. yes, i'm greedy and i still want to embrace the mountain, and i need hard work to ensure everything run smoothly. i'm proud for my friends that have been finding their own career path, and i know my time will come, soon InsyaAllah. never give up, hurm~ always have faith on Him...yup!! believe in myself, because nobody will enjoy the benefits except me.

"Dan sesiapa yang bertawakkal kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan mencukupkannya (keperluan)"

AlQuran 65/03

first impression

ok,quit talking about serious staff,its not like i'm going to be be the next PM. Lets talk about real situation,that you always encounter in your life. i'm satisfied with myself, even though i'm not perfect. i'm not close enough to become 'pujaan malaya', i'm more towards invisible person. i'll admit i'm a shy person, which really100x have problem to build a new relationship. as an example, if i'm going a new place, it takes me an age to show my comfortable side to the other party. why am i like that? i also dont know~

so i'm always listening to complaints from my friend that i've use to become passive when they 1st know me. after that, ONLY i show my true self. ok fine, i'm also had listen to words like

"she's looks like an innocent girl at first, but never thought that she's more crazy than i am"

" i never thought she's the same league wth us"

bla,bla,bla~

and they've also complaining that i have a blur face everytime~even i've got people to ask me personally if i have any problem with them. those are my natural face!!! please, please and please understand my natural behavior,hahaha =p

Example?

so after all, do i care? definitely no.....even my sister always complaining about my frown face, but i need it to think deeply.haha, people will always talk, but if you always act with what people said, congratulations!! you are natural born actor! or you are celebrity,wow!! we cannot satisfied all people, just be yourself. listen to good complaints is good to make your life's better, but otherwise, just dont think too much....

i've also heard that i'm a cool person when i'm having a problem. no, i'm not a cool person. lots of times i'm crying when i'm facing difficulties. but we need to get up after that. mourning too long is not good for your health.when you have a problem, take time to mourn, find the route of the problem and get up on your feets. use your own power to take over the world. sometimes we need friend to share everything but dont make people feel burden with us!

time to look back~

"Sometimes the best way to convince someone that he is wrong is to let him have his way." –Red O’Donnell

today i'm learning something.even though its a small matter but its important to turn my life upside down.so the lesson of the day is.........

NEVER GOING TO THE INTERVIEW WITHOUT PREPARATION,HAHAHA~

ok sincerely, i do prepare for my interview today...but not as much as i should do.because normally when i'm going to the interviu, i need to go through HR people 1st,and they will ask basic questions. booooooooo~ u're wrong. becos today i'm having an interviu with my head department, and everything is technical!! i forgot to look back to my books,studies~sigh.it makes me laugh on the way back.


why i'm laughing? supposely i'm sad rite?because its my own fault to be blame wth if i dont get the job. but people needs to learn from lesson.... keep reminds myself that its not easy to get something.need to work hard. have another job interview next week.will to start my bookworm project a.s.a.p. 4 those who'll wait patiently to cilok my 1st salary, please be more patient...i'm working hard=)


sitting freely at home those past months makes me forget about everything!!!what dgree i'm taking?farming?=)

its been long time since i'm updating my blog~and its due to too much stress,the brain seems not working.sigh~just yesterday i'm having another inteviu, and i cannot say much whether i'll have a chance or not.basically, i'll try my best rite?is it luck that employ graduate people?not really rite?


but the bes thing i share with the interviewer was, he's saying about the problem Msia have rite now. govermen tends to create thousands of graduate in challenging subjects like biotech, biomedic,engineering,science etc but pooof~at the end of the graduation, they told u that our country doesnt have specialization on that industry and bla,bla,bla~u need to have xperience in order to enter it.so, the real situation is,if no one want to give us the specific xperience, who will?does me would end up in different industry?dont knowla

mybe its jus a problem for me,or for hundreds of graduate who still unemployed. there's really no connection between university alignment with what had been needed by the industry. something should be done, in order to ensure that wawasan 2020 will be fulfilled, and at the same time utilizing what Malaysian's have. even in the newspaper las week they said about too much doctor in training, what the? b4 this people are debating about shortage of dctor and now?too much? its either less or more rite?never accurate in both of them.....

but i strongly believe in faith..need to be strong. will be using this leisure time in order to fill up the knowledge that can be grab. the interviewer suggest me to cntinue with my master, but in oversea. becos he says that the market is more demanding there. its a good suggestion, if meets with good scholarships. will be working hard, dont want to lose hope.fghting!!!for the better future

p/s: to en omar and pn amidah, hopefully i'm not burden you,since it has been a long time that I had been unemployed=(

new beginning....

hurm,finally its my cnvo...eventhough i felt nothing on that day. jus a celebration,as a mark that we have complete our course. but fortunately my friends came,and brought along some flowers,so its kind of worth to come (ok,so i do think of several reasons to skip from that day=).unfortunately, i really have problem to find my classmates and frens after the ceremony so very little pic that i had taken with them.only with my parents and schoolmates.nevertheless, its very tiring!!

so as long as i know,i have complete my dgree, i have no longer bonded with shell and my convo had just over so what's next?work!work!work!!! still no lucks with that. ayah said to be patient,becos we never know about rezqi.everything is in God's hand. we try our hardest, and pray a lot for Him to guide us to the right path. mama said to just enjoy my long vacation,becos when i'll start working there will be no more free time. ayah told me to apply as a teacher~and my frens said to find work a.s.a.p~becos i'm always broken.my car always sick and....ah,the life of an unemployed~its tiring,but i bet its more fun than working rite?

ah~sighing....life is beautiful isnt it.so i'll just go on with it.its not i don wan to have a part time job be4 getting the real job but....mybe its the time for me to accompany my parents as long as i can.who knows which parts in Malaysia would i be working on?its more tiring when u know that your brother and sister working on multinational cmpany with big salary,fuh~pressure,pressure and pressure!!so jus go with the flow.even though smetimes i feel tired with the flow,but finding a job is part of my job rite now....its a full time job!!!to find a suitable job that i will love insyaAllah.pray for me a lot,insyaAllah...

my dad,en omar~

wanna tell dis story long time ago,but never have the time to write it.its all about him,our family's hero.... even though i'm not that close enough to him,but i'll treasure him as someone who had made me the way i am rite now.yup,en omar ab razak aka my dad~really hard to find his picture alone,because he's never like taking pictures~even on hari raya!!

ayah used to be someone we'd really scared of.he has the character that made us listen to every words he said.becos he's busy working to provide our needs,we have little time to sit and chat together.everything will be direct to mama,even when we dont have money!!!so basically mama would be our representator to seek funds from ayah=p

so,when ayah had retired,he spends most of the time at home.but,during his retirement,everyone had gone to university and hostels.the only person who got to know ayah better is only mama,and his grandchldren.ayah starts to talk more,gardening,becomes more soft-heartening towards chldren( ok, i'm comparing between us long time ago and today,when he's playing with his grandchild). but he's not strong like before~he's becoming more reliable to us....

when he's 40,doctor told him he's got heart disease and high blood pressure. he's performing hajj that year cos afraid he's not gonna make it later. alhamdulillah,he's still strong until now.but afte bypass operation last year i think,he's becoming a little bit slow in action.he once said:

"nabi muhammad ada kata,limit umur umat dia cma 60 tahun.klu pjg umur,lbh dr tu,maka tuhan akan tarik nkmat satu-persatu.mmg terasa sgtla bla umur da mningkatni...."

even if he wants to take off his shirt,it will take longer than usual.he cant drive for long journeys,becos his legs will become numb. there's 1 day at kmpung where we all go to kebun, and then suddenly my father, riding motorcycle fell off from his bike becos of the stone at the road blocking him.i do think that if he has kudrat,he can stop himself from falling but mybe becos of his age,he falls off very slowly.thank God were behind him.the place is really far away from our home!!

but nevertheless,i love him more and more everyday.eventhough i've never show it to him,i'll do pray for him each time,hope for him to have a blessful life today and hereafter. hoping that he will be there during my wedding...hoping that he will be there when i have my first baby....hoping that Allah will give happiness to us in this world and Hereafter. "kematian adalah sesuatu yg pasti,maka hendaklah kita sentiasa bersedia insyaAllah".

thanx for the memories

need to calm down,eventhough don know where should i start.jus coming back from that place,and sudddenly everythings come at one time.raya preparation,knvo,and most importantly~job hunting!!hurm,back to lazy mode,and preparing mentally to be lecture by my sblings

'pgla cri keja'

'da try mntak kt sykat x?'

'resume tu da btulkn blm?'

'ari2 ada call sykt x tak mntak update'

but the most hatred thing to say

'menyemak je kt umahni,pgla cri keja=p'

who doesnt want to have a job?especially 4 fresh grad like me~but i dont want to change job regularly,jus becos i'll take this thing lightly.need to work harder,in order to make the big boss employ me.fgting!!!!

so,what have i done in this past 2 and half month?i cant say that i learn nothing at all,but most probably,erk....0.5% mybe.only frenship that i treasure.met lots of people and have a great time with them.were all in the same boat,and have the same unhappiness. and i have been given great responsibility to deal with.being a leader is not always an 'easy' task.its not like i don have courage to take the challenge,but the thing is it came too suddenly,without notice. even i myself cannot accept the prgram,how on earth may i lead and help the facilitator to ensure the smoothness of the program.and the way they guide us,erk....no thanx~rather learning by myself than asking them. we ourselves who had dgree or diploma never even mntion about our crtificates or feeling big enough to empower them but deep inside themselves they think that we are trying to show off with what we had.hurm,mybe only some of them,but it makes me sick!!

basically, want to show my deepest thanx to my best frens there~SYUD,ANEM and adik manis FAZ.they've been going through lots with me.they saw me laughing,crying etc~wthout them i don know what will happen...

syud~she's strong,mybe due to the age and experience she once had. most probably our thnking were same,and i have lots of fun doing crazy things with her.she has the confidence that rarely people our age have.luv everything about her...praying for brighter future for us.

anem~she's a good companion~always listening to my complain,complain and complain,but never complain about me.a good leader,eventhough at first she's unsure with her talent. love her jokes very much,blh wat org guling2~needs to says sory to her if i had done anything bad to her becos u know,always besides her this past 2 and half month.

faz~she's good,and she's totally pure....~very energetic smtimes but when the night comes, she's usually exhausted.a little bit moody,jus like a small child.but its totally understandable becos she's the younger.learn a lot from her,and she's really adorable from every perspective.luv to make people smile but sadfully she's a regular in medic=)take care of your health ye cik adik~

in the end,i jus wanna let them know that eventhough it seems like i less care about them becos of the way i respond to them~i'm truly appreciate them as my frens.they help me a lot and i dont know how to thanx them enough.to all of my buddies that i have get to know there,thanx for all the memories and i do hope we keep in touch in the future.....

trying to understand myself

lots of things occurs lately and definitely its not really good,more to bad things. trying so hard to keep my mind positive,go straight towards the destination without pit stop.wallah~its too hard i think.becos evrything is so blur....unreadable

i'm 24,and that's the fact.trying my best to fulfill my dream but the reality is too much.yeah, no success come without problems~

people always said that i'm strong,and i believe their words. their encouragement mean lots to me.they are what we called frens.they give me spirits, and they always believe that i can grab the dreams that i hope 4. they give me strength to gather up every energy that i have and continue this never ending journey....

but when i'm left alone i feel unsecured. everythng's messy...feel like i'm drowning in my own breath.trying and trying but the results are still the same. its not like i cannot accept the fact, but i'm scared when i need to face it alone.evryone have their own life and me?need to understand myself better.need to love myself lots more....i know everything had been arranged by Him, so i need to accept the actual facts.keep fghting!!!!i don care what other people said but all i need to do is work harder in order to fulfill my dream....yeeha!!!

thanx for everything

i declare today as a sad day

becos i'm crying a lot until my eyes become puffy

saya harap saya ada kekuatan

utk mnahan air mata daripada mnitis

but even izzah saw me cry~

apela,dpn bdk kecikpn tak reti nk cover

apenye mkckla sayani

tp saya dpt kekuatan

bla mjid hulurkn bntuan

bla ping hulurkan kekuatan

bla mar hulurkan kasih sayang

saya hnya insan biase

nmpak je tabah d luar tp sbenanye hati saya rapuh sperti kaca

saya tau,Allah sntiasa bsma saya

tp tak slhkn skali skala mngeluarkn air mata

utk mmbuang prasaan yg hnye saya sdiri yg rsa

hnye saya sdiri yg tau

yg tak blh nk diucap dgn kata2

sbb saya...saya mnusia biasa

dan sya prlukn kekuatan yg prlu sya bina sdiri

to dear mjid,trima kasih sbb tmankn saya

klu tak saya rsa arini saya abehkn msa dgn mngeluarkn air mata je

u'lll know that i'm not that strong,but i need to

becos i'm jus 24,and there's lots of things that i need to learn more

your companied means lots to me

ayat2 mjid dlm blog wat sya teharu yg amat sgt

da bape thn jid kta kwn.tp ikatan dia jid,hanya Allah yg tau

suhaili~da lma tak pnggil your real's name

will be missing u a lot

hoping for your doa always....

need to be stronger,utk mngelakkn pn amidah rsau

love u much mjid,and you know that's rite~

dgr lagu ijau daun,cri jodh,mst tringat kt ko,yeeha!!

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few daysni,byk sgt daydreaming kt umah.sma keja tak jln....eventhough da dpt notice for inteviu this coming 28,tp msh tak begerak2 gak main simsni.uish2,fghting2~need to prepare more.this coming 28 will be the most exciting war that i've been waited for.it will definitely affect my future.whether i'm being accepted or not, i need to work on it first.then, lets pray to the Almighty One.He's the one who knows best about everything.there's so much 'unsettled' things in my mind but i know,i should be back to Him.i have none other than Him. Only Him Yang Maha Mendengar lg Maha Mengetahui whats the best for me....

other than playing games,i also trying my best to finish up 1 book that i found really interesting.ok, i'm not die hard fan of motivational books but i thought after few chapters this book tends to hook me up. the book labeled as "the power of positive thinking"....by norman vincent peale. what i've been 100% sure is thar Dr Peale is having fully faith in his religion, which is Christian. what i want to highlight is not about the way he try to persuade us into his believe, but the way he believe that there's someone up there who is listening to each words of our pray. and lots of words that he's taken is from Bible, which according to him if we utter it several times in our life, it will be bring peacefulness in our life. the question is, do we tend to put down the book when we believe that what he said is not in the same line as in Islam or do we continue and connect it with what we had been learning so far?

thats come the beauty of our aqal. to think what's right and what's wrong.i'm not done yet with my reading but so far the concept that he needs us to understand is what makes us fail from time 2 time is because of our mind thinking.we are too scared to try new things or we are dealing with the biggest picture (which in this case is the current problem) without giving a chance towards other happiness (in this case our family,frens etc).so by the end of the day,we tend to give up and in some cases,they are people who ended up by killing themselves. i believe the answer to energetic life each day comes from the energy that we consume, and the energy that we conserve.after we try our hardest in everything, pray to our Almighty God, which is Allah, who had created us and Isa a.s.He is the one who always listen to our pray. not only during five times prayer, but every single time.believe that Allah always with us.pray with sincerity and with the humbleness of a person who'd position as an abdillah~

thats come the beauty of qiamullail.its not only good for our health,but at that time~when most of the people still in their bed, we are sacrificing our sleep. telling all the stories to Him. hoping with sincerity in order to ask for forgiveness. kneel down,prostrate yourself in sujud,ask if there were no tomorrow. eventhough tomorrow's problem need to be faced, its a relief in heart if we had told all the problem the night before.yes, sometimes we are trying hard to find the person called friends,which we can trust all of our secrets, and be there all the time in our life.but thats difficult right?people tends to come and go,but He,the Almighty one,Allah which had created us, always listening to everything and only Him, is the only God.

the moral of the story is, whatever u want to do,always come back to Allah. He is the key for every success.there will be some tests right in front of you,but believe that Allah is there, and always be there. Why did not we take Quran versus which can smooth our heart and mind....Alquran is the greatest revealation in this world,and insyaAllah it will guide us to the right path~

hati yg gelisah

arini rsa serba tak kena,tak tau nk watpe.ptg td tman angah pg alamnda,bought few things~cek2 poket duit suda kering.ish2~dlm keta mngharungi jam,ttba angah bka cerita,about my grandmom,tp kt umahni tak pnggl nenek,kitorg pnggl mak.usually in 2-3months,our grandmom will come and visits us,sleep for 2-3weeks.tp akhr2ni mak tak dtg.ingtkn mak tak larat jln jauh perak-kajang~rpa2nye ade cite dsbaliknye.she's upset with ayah,uhuk2....ari2 ayah ada tnggi suara dgn mak,so dia trasa...mmbawa hatinye yg lara plng ke perak.tidak dtg2 ke sni lg..

org kata,org tuani hatinye cpt trasa.mkn tua mkn cpt trasa.mmgla ayah 2 mnantunye,tp klu da trasa mmgla mmbawa hati yg lara.ayah saya mmg not perfect but nevertheless his my dad.ayah sya mmg grang,but nevertheless he still my dad.ayah saya mmg kuat nagging,tp dia ttp ayah saya.ayah saya tak perfect,but he still and always be my dad. bgla the best dad in the world, sya tetap pilih ayah sya....kekadang saya rsa tak puas ati dgn ayah sya,tp sya stiasa doakn kesejahteraan ayah sya.lg mrah sya dgn ayah saya,lg byk doa sya curahkn utk dia.moga2 dia stiasa dlmpahi rhmat dnia akhirat.moga tuhan jauhkn dia dr brasa rsau ttg ank2 dia.sbb only us,family knows him better.wlupn dia ska tnggi suara kt kmi, we love him from the bottom of my heart.sya tak nk mnyesal di kmudian hari.let him or me go first,we dont know.sya mau ayah sya always be there,smasa graduation sya,mnjd wali pernikahan saya dan bemain2 dgn ank2 saya. dan jika ajalnye tlh tba,maka yaAllah,pmudahknla pjlnn beliau dari liang lahad ke hari perhitungan.in the end,saya sgt syng ayah saya,eventhough i'll never said straight to him....

saya bhsan

saya bhsan,bhsan dan bhsan.byk sbenanye keja nk wat,tp i've always delay it.delay,delay,delay~mmg pnyakit jiwa btul..rsa mcm cuak tak keja lg tp mls nk mntak,muahahaha~essei tak siap lg,nk mngarang ayat lg.inteview mybe in the near fture,org 2 da bg email da,tp mlepak jua d dpn kmputer ini.mncari ktenangankah,muahaha...kesimpulannye,saya sgt lazy,sya tak mau wat pape~

tp smpai blakn?i know i should be moving.there's no one to push me except myself. jd ttba rsa bsmngat lak,skjp jela tp~ttba rsa ngntuk lak.bak to lazy mode,yeeha~

what do we belief?

Doubt can stop you in your tracks

it can drain away your desire

Believing, on the other hand,

can set your world afire.

When you hold the opinion that

You can reach that special dream,

You have the edge needed to make

Achieving much easier than it may seem.

Believing in your ability

Affects the way you act

And produces an air of confidence

Which influences how others will react.

When you believe you can achieve

And believe it with all your soul,

You possess a powerful asset

You most likely will reach your goal.

-Anonymous