thanx for everything

i declare today as a sad day

becos i'm crying a lot until my eyes become puffy

saya harap saya ada kekuatan

utk mnahan air mata daripada mnitis

but even izzah saw me cry~

apela,dpn bdk kecikpn tak reti nk cover

apenye mkckla sayani

tp saya dpt kekuatan

bla mjid hulurkn bntuan

bla ping hulurkan kekuatan

bla mar hulurkan kasih sayang

saya hnya insan biase

nmpak je tabah d luar tp sbenanye hati saya rapuh sperti kaca

saya tau,Allah sntiasa bsma saya

tp tak slhkn skali skala mngeluarkn air mata

utk mmbuang prasaan yg hnye saya sdiri yg rsa

hnye saya sdiri yg tau

yg tak blh nk diucap dgn kata2

sbb saya...saya mnusia biasa

dan sya prlukn kekuatan yg prlu sya bina sdiri

to dear mjid,trima kasih sbb tmankn saya

klu tak saya rsa arini saya abehkn msa dgn mngeluarkn air mata je

u'lll know that i'm not that strong,but i need to

becos i'm jus 24,and there's lots of things that i need to learn more

your companied means lots to me

ayat2 mjid dlm blog wat sya teharu yg amat sgt

da bape thn jid kta kwn.tp ikatan dia jid,hanya Allah yg tau

suhaili~da lma tak pnggil your real's name

will be missing u a lot

hoping for your doa always....

need to be stronger,utk mngelakkn pn amidah rsau

love u much mjid,and you know that's rite~

dgr lagu ijau daun,cri jodh,mst tringat kt ko,yeeha!!

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few daysni,byk sgt daydreaming kt umah.sma keja tak jln....eventhough da dpt notice for inteviu this coming 28,tp msh tak begerak2 gak main simsni.uish2,fghting2~need to prepare more.this coming 28 will be the most exciting war that i've been waited for.it will definitely affect my future.whether i'm being accepted or not, i need to work on it first.then, lets pray to the Almighty One.He's the one who knows best about everything.there's so much 'unsettled' things in my mind but i know,i should be back to Him.i have none other than Him. Only Him Yang Maha Mendengar lg Maha Mengetahui whats the best for me....

other than playing games,i also trying my best to finish up 1 book that i found really interesting.ok, i'm not die hard fan of motivational books but i thought after few chapters this book tends to hook me up. the book labeled as "the power of positive thinking"....by norman vincent peale. what i've been 100% sure is thar Dr Peale is having fully faith in his religion, which is Christian. what i want to highlight is not about the way he try to persuade us into his believe, but the way he believe that there's someone up there who is listening to each words of our pray. and lots of words that he's taken is from Bible, which according to him if we utter it several times in our life, it will be bring peacefulness in our life. the question is, do we tend to put down the book when we believe that what he said is not in the same line as in Islam or do we continue and connect it with what we had been learning so far?

thats come the beauty of our aqal. to think what's right and what's wrong.i'm not done yet with my reading but so far the concept that he needs us to understand is what makes us fail from time 2 time is because of our mind thinking.we are too scared to try new things or we are dealing with the biggest picture (which in this case is the current problem) without giving a chance towards other happiness (in this case our family,frens etc).so by the end of the day,we tend to give up and in some cases,they are people who ended up by killing themselves. i believe the answer to energetic life each day comes from the energy that we consume, and the energy that we conserve.after we try our hardest in everything, pray to our Almighty God, which is Allah, who had created us and Isa a.s.He is the one who always listen to our pray. not only during five times prayer, but every single time.believe that Allah always with us.pray with sincerity and with the humbleness of a person who'd position as an abdillah~

thats come the beauty of qiamullail.its not only good for our health,but at that time~when most of the people still in their bed, we are sacrificing our sleep. telling all the stories to Him. hoping with sincerity in order to ask for forgiveness. kneel down,prostrate yourself in sujud,ask if there were no tomorrow. eventhough tomorrow's problem need to be faced, its a relief in heart if we had told all the problem the night before.yes, sometimes we are trying hard to find the person called friends,which we can trust all of our secrets, and be there all the time in our life.but thats difficult right?people tends to come and go,but He,the Almighty one,Allah which had created us, always listening to everything and only Him, is the only God.

the moral of the story is, whatever u want to do,always come back to Allah. He is the key for every success.there will be some tests right in front of you,but believe that Allah is there, and always be there. Why did not we take Quran versus which can smooth our heart and mind....Alquran is the greatest revealation in this world,and insyaAllah it will guide us to the right path~

hati yg gelisah

arini rsa serba tak kena,tak tau nk watpe.ptg td tman angah pg alamnda,bought few things~cek2 poket duit suda kering.ish2~dlm keta mngharungi jam,ttba angah bka cerita,about my grandmom,tp kt umahni tak pnggl nenek,kitorg pnggl mak.usually in 2-3months,our grandmom will come and visits us,sleep for 2-3weeks.tp akhr2ni mak tak dtg.ingtkn mak tak larat jln jauh perak-kajang~rpa2nye ade cite dsbaliknye.she's upset with ayah,uhuk2....ari2 ayah ada tnggi suara dgn mak,so dia trasa...mmbawa hatinye yg lara plng ke perak.tidak dtg2 ke sni lg..

org kata,org tuani hatinye cpt trasa.mkn tua mkn cpt trasa.mmgla ayah 2 mnantunye,tp klu da trasa mmgla mmbawa hati yg lara.ayah saya mmg not perfect but nevertheless his my dad.ayah sya mmg grang,but nevertheless he still my dad.ayah saya mmg kuat nagging,tp dia ttp ayah saya.ayah saya tak perfect,but he still and always be my dad. bgla the best dad in the world, sya tetap pilih ayah sya....kekadang saya rsa tak puas ati dgn ayah sya,tp sya stiasa doakn kesejahteraan ayah sya.lg mrah sya dgn ayah saya,lg byk doa sya curahkn utk dia.moga2 dia stiasa dlmpahi rhmat dnia akhirat.moga tuhan jauhkn dia dr brasa rsau ttg ank2 dia.sbb only us,family knows him better.wlupn dia ska tnggi suara kt kmi, we love him from the bottom of my heart.sya tak nk mnyesal di kmudian hari.let him or me go first,we dont know.sya mau ayah sya always be there,smasa graduation sya,mnjd wali pernikahan saya dan bemain2 dgn ank2 saya. dan jika ajalnye tlh tba,maka yaAllah,pmudahknla pjlnn beliau dari liang lahad ke hari perhitungan.in the end,saya sgt syng ayah saya,eventhough i'll never said straight to him....

saya bhsan

saya bhsan,bhsan dan bhsan.byk sbenanye keja nk wat,tp i've always delay it.delay,delay,delay~mmg pnyakit jiwa btul..rsa mcm cuak tak keja lg tp mls nk mntak,muahahaha~essei tak siap lg,nk mngarang ayat lg.inteview mybe in the near fture,org 2 da bg email da,tp mlepak jua d dpn kmputer ini.mncari ktenangankah,muahaha...kesimpulannye,saya sgt lazy,sya tak mau wat pape~

tp smpai blakn?i know i should be moving.there's no one to push me except myself. jd ttba rsa bsmngat lak,skjp jela tp~ttba rsa ngntuk lak.bak to lazy mode,yeeha~

what do we belief?

Doubt can stop you in your tracks

it can drain away your desire

Believing, on the other hand,

can set your world afire.

When you hold the opinion that

You can reach that special dream,

You have the edge needed to make

Achieving much easier than it may seem.

Believing in your ability

Affects the way you act

And produces an air of confidence

Which influences how others will react.

When you believe you can achieve

And believe it with all your soul,

You possess a powerful asset

You most likely will reach your goal.

-Anonymous

its up to us

i'm thinking a lot, as what i had been achieved today is becos of what i had believe or what other people believe?truthfully,its becos Allah gives us His mercy but,we,as the person who had been gifted with aqal to think,do we use it as maximize as possible? I jus,it cross my mind when people starts talking back about us,do we prefer not to listen or do we chose to make a different choice in order to satisfy others...hurm,in some cases,yeah~its totally worth to change but if what we had done is somthing right,does it matter? does it hurt to have our own freedom of thinking?

its happen a lot,even when you're making a small decision.you want to eat pasta,but your fren insists on nasi lemak.its ridiculous to hang out with your fren but end up having lunch by your own.in order not to create mischieve,you'll end up agreeing with your fren's decision. even this things happen when youre going to the university.which university would you chose?do you need to accept the offer from oversea?and etc...but what makes matter worse is when you're also listening to people when it comes to the appearance of yourself!!!

'you're look fat'

'you're look ugly'

'argh,the dress doesnt suits you'

'i think you're a loser'

so hows people cope with the situation.yeah, you have a choice to believe or not,but you dont need to take the impact seriously.its good for you to make a change,but do it for your own self.becos you love yourself.not becos you want to look good in other's eyes.especially if the one who's talking is your own byfren...youre willing to do anything,to satisfy him.if he said blue looks good on you,youll be wearing that forever~if he said youre look ugly in yellow,you throw away all those yellow 'things'. if he said you're fat,you'll go for some diet. so if he said you're ugly, do you need to risk your life by putting knife on your face?

why and why i need to mention all of this things? becos somtimes i think, people criticize others too much, even to the stage that theyll enjoy doing it. ok,theyre life is not that great,but the satisfaction to make people down is always there.you can feel down to earth becos of your appearance,but indeed thank God for all the things that you had.stop dreaming about perfection in everything,go for satisfaction with the normal life that you have. you can be beatiful,inner and outer, if you love yourself more than anyone do.....

it was fun,after all

today i have a fun day,with toh puan mjid=p~even at first this even is undeniably not properly plan,it has gone really well. i thought that i need fresh air,rather than sitting alone in front of the computer doing nothing,so i contact mjid~fortunately for us that shrek...forever after is being premiered today so,i'm using my full strength to run&run and grab the tickets (ok fine its a lie,i jus walk calmly to the booth and ask for tickets). becos we have to wait for adk mjid to join us together,were heading to the~kotak itam

so for the next one hour,were rather shouting and lalala~ rather than singing.soutun najah betaut kmbali,haha~mjid,nxt time we should do it again,with more members to join!!

basically,after watching shrek,i should say.....its fun and fun and 1000xfun.its not typical fairy tail,and its fun,hahaha~but what i like the most is this precious eyes of puss

he's totally cute!!!and obese too (rather than referred as "it" ,i'l prefer "he")~ even ogre knows how to fight for their own happiness.family,fren,etc...its all important to us,but we take it very lightly.when the happiness is gone,thats when we know the meaning of "appreciate'". even if we connect it with our own life, i'll sure everybody knows what's the meaning behind. we have the same routine,we have the same family member, but we keep searching about something 'missing'.why dont jus grab the 'real' one,and leave the 'non-existence' one?the moral of the story: love your family more and more

i know,the fact that shrek is ugly,ugly and ugly~but he is in fact the hero in this film,and he does make his fan proud (sigh~)...even he's dragged the fiona to become someone like him (rather than being a princess?).but the whole movie is fun,and at the same time educate people.so i do hope people will enjoy it.overall,today definitely is fun,after all~

even shrek has his own buddie,where's mine?=p